Sneak peak

Maybe three of you got a sneak peak at a blog I later decided was unworthy of posting.  If I wanted to talk about stupid boys, I could write about them in my personal journal.  This is the space for things far more insightful than that pesky rubbish.

One thing I did touch on in that now deleted blog is how often the word destiny has been a part of my vocabulary lately.  It's a terrifying and exciting word.  Feeling like you are in the exact place you are destined to be, meeting the exact people you were destined to meet, it comes with a sense of calm like no other. But in the moments where you let your mind start to wander, it also comes with a great deal of stress about how you might fuck it all up in the next moment.  But there is no other word that suites this occasion. People ask me why I picked Thailand... and I always struggled to answer them. I don't know! I started researching, and this was the program that worked. Yes, I was intrigued by many aspects of the country, and I did pick it over China or Korea, but I really feel like this country picked me. And in the months following my decision, I got a little glimpse into why I might really be coming here, but at the time I paid it no mind. I wasn't ready to see what was coming for me just yet.  I think destiny works like that sometimes. In five days, my life is going to change quite dramatically.  Some things will still feel the same, but my actions have set something entirely new and exciting into motion.

I will write plenty more on the matter in the following weeks, and I will reveal exactly what is happening. But for now, rest easy knowing that exactly what is supposed to happen, is happening. :)